During Thursday’s episode of The Run-Through with Vogue podcast, veteran rapper Nicki Minaj expressed regret over having plastic surgery, claiming she was even surprised by some of the old photographs of herself that she didn’t like before getting the procedure.
“I guarantee you, if you change anything on your body and do anything surgical and all this, you’re going to — more than likely, not definitely, more than likely — look back one day and say, ‘I was fine just the way I was,’” the 40-year-old told hosts Chioma Nnadi and Chloe Malle, PEOPLE reported.
“And that’s what happened to me,” she continued. “I could not believe even some of the photos that I didn’t love.”
When the co-hosts mentioned the Supa Bass artist sitting alongside Vogue Editor-in-Chief Anna Wintour at the Carolina Herrera Show in September 2011, Minaj said she doesn’t look at previous images because “I didn’t like the way I looked.”
“I didn’t like being skinny, having a flat butt, you know. Having boobs that didn’t sit high enough. It was a lot of things,” she added. “And when I look back at myself now, I literally was like, ‘Oh, I’m about to look like that girl again.’”
“The reason why I wasn’t able to look back at my old photos was I didn’t like the way I looked, right, physically,” the 40-year-old continued. “And now I love the way that person looks physically.”
Minaj also stated that the modifications she made were motivated by her growing popularity. She reportedly claimed that her love of music has led her to a “very scary” area that resembles a “fish bowl” with “millions” of people watching her, according to PEOPLE.
But she said the way she viewed herself changed when she gave birth to her 3-year-old son. “I think pregnancy could’ve played a role because seeing my son did remind me of myself so much. My real self. And it made me think why didn’t I like this? So weird,” the Pink Friday rapper said.
“But seeing old photos, being able to look at old photos again made me realize, ‘These old photos are beautiful.’”