Nate Burrell, a star of the A&E docuseries 60 Days In, has died after an apparent self-inflicted gunshot wound.
Burrell’s sister, Chelsey Walker, told TMZ that the 33-year-old star shot himself in public on Saturday night, October 31, in his hometown of Allegan, Michigan.
The American reality TV star, who had just turned 33, had been expecting a child with his wife, who he had recently split from, Walker said.
Earlier before he took his life, the former Marine had posted a lengthy 3000-word message to Facebook, where he wrote that he ‘can’t keep going on’.
This isn’t an admission of guilt. I’m just tired, I’ve been through so much in my life, the pain of my situation now hurts more than I ever imagined. I can’t keep going on,’ the post read in part.
‘I want to apologize to my family and friends for failing you. I know alot of you will think you could have changed my mind I ensure you, you wouldn’t. This isn’t a spontaneous thing.’
‘I can only imagine how bad this would all turn out, all of the legal crap that would ensue after this with custody and everything else,’ Burrell’s post continued. ‘You win! You have promised for weeks, you will ruin my life and I had no idea who I was messing with. You are right, I didn’t know who I was messing with.’
His post continued: ‘For those who are mourning know I’m in such a better place. I’m no longer fighting the battles that have been causing so much pain in my mind and life. Waking up feeling worthless, lost, confused, and tired/exhausted. I know you all have told me that’s not who I am and I’m talented and have a good head on my shoulders, I appreciate you, but it doesn’t help how I feel.’
‘Our military and their families need it… Our military and their families need it. I checked myself into the hospital for wanting to commit suicide and from the beginning I felt like a criminal going to jail. Stripped of my dignity and identity and personal property.
‘I needed my family and friends during this time and you took that away. Not being able to communicate put me in such a darker hole than I was in originally that was so hard on me mentally. I would have told you anything to get me out of that place even if it meant I was okay when I wasn’t. You didn’t help me you held me prisoner so I couldn’t hurt myself?’
He concluded the post with a bible verse and the quote, ‘Let our lives not be defined by our mistakes but instead our hearts.’
Burrell served in the military as a Marine from 2006 to 2010. He was in the infantry and served 2 tours in Iraq and went on to receive his associate degree in criminal justice and law enforcement in 2014.